Tuesday, November 23, 2004
its almost thanksgiving...and im hungry. i have the greatest girlfriend in the world. i just wish she trusted me 100%. she feels that her freind, now roommate jamie, is gonna make a move on me. for one, not to be mean at all, jamie is a very nice person, she is not very pretty. her current sution is very pretty either. there is now way in hell, i would ever want to be with her. i love my krista, not anyone eles. there is only one person that could maybe possible take me away from her. and i think that it is obvious who that is. but that will never happen because i love my krista and i never want to be with out her. i dont know why but for some reason, the fact she had had sex before with 2 differne t people sometimes just bothers me. it shouldnt. it is the past. but...it just somewhat makes the fact the we have done it to be not as i guess sacred or specieal. but that was the past, her present and future is with me. we told breet yesturday that we did it. i cant wait to talk to him about it. i sorta cleaned my room. it was fun. im soo bored when krista is not with me, i had my first craving for a smoke in like 2 weeks, prolly just because she wasnt with me. but i didnt have one. 11/2 last time i had i smoke. i love you krista kay. i love you with all my heart. you are my enternal sunshine. I LOVE YOU!!!!!
music: trick daddy, lil john, twista - lets go
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music: trick daddy, lil john, twista - lets go
Monday, November 22, 2004
its almost thanksgiving, and i have soo much to be thankful for. my saturday was something. me and krista went bowling. and.....of course...wouldnt ya know. i look up a this kid a few lanes down and i think jeez that looks like micheal mensch, i dont think anything of it, i look over at the rest of the people over there and sitting down is krista holding alton, to say i just about shit is an understatment. she was there withh all the kids and ed. she had to have seen me there with her, and i know it fucking hurt her. cause even tho im with mine, seeing her there with ed, still almost made me sick. so i know how she felt. sometimes i wonder why we do this to each other. we both want to be with each other, even tho. theres one thing i have asked my self, if she leaves ed, would i leave mine to be with her. i dont know how i could choose. i loved krista frey for four months, i had the absoulte best times with her, and the absoulty hell when i wasnt with her. i needed her more than she could have ever known. then came november fourth. i never saw it coming, tho i wish i did. i love my krista more than anything in this world. i cant believ we are together. it has been like a fantasy these last two and a half weeks. tomorrow amber and krista frey are going to the mall. i want to goo soo bad. but mine is working...at the mall...do i take that risk. i dont think i can. because if she saw me with her. it would be over between us, i know. and i would have nothing. and i would prolly be over. i would have had enough. so i guess, i cant take any risks, ever again. i love krista kay soo much. i know that my feelings for her are soo much stronger than anything i ever felt for krista frey. but is that just because i have actually doone stufff with mine. making out is very fun. and sex...yes sex is very good. i love her. i truly love her. i want to spend the rest of my life with her. I LOVE YOU KRISTA KAY!!! I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!!!!
music: green day - boulevard of broken dreams
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music: green day - boulevard of broken dreams
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
im soo bored. my krista kay is at her first day of bowling practice. and i dont know how she is going to make it through the whole season, cause of her knee. but...so ya her like freind jamie is living with her now, and i know i have no right to feel like oh she is gonna have to spend time with her but, i have only known her now for 2 weeks tonite, i feel like i need to make up for 19 years, i want to be with her all i can. and this for some reason bothered me a lot. i was other at her house last nite and the three of us were talking and jamie said that krista went out on a date with a 26 year old. i was like wtf. i didnt say anything and prolly never will , but i just sorta creeped me out. like what the fuck where you doing with a 26 year old jerk off perverted fucker trying to get a little tenny. she said it was only 1 date and nothing happened. i dont know. i just cant like tell her her how stuff like that makes me feel, so.....i guess i finally reliaze y she feels the way she does about krista. if something in the past bothers me that much, how about something in the present bothering her 10 times more. i get it now. i just wish thigns could end up differne t but im gonna loose krista frey. but i have never been happier now, and before, suicide was sounding better and better everyday. so i gueess life is working out. hopefully i post more often now, it was just soo hard before when the news was the same old same old shit, with only that slimmert of hope. but now the sun is out. i love you krista kay. you are my life, i have found my only, my only one. i love you!!!!
music: the get up kids - ill catch you
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music: the get up kids - ill catch you
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
so, ya life is great. i just want to get some place and move in with krista, i think she wants to too. so ya. im sooo in love with her, its not funny. "but theres one thing i can do nothing about" -tbs ya she hates krista frey. i dont know why. she somehoe ened up talking with her online and i know where she is coming from, but i ??? i dont know. nate said something that put things clearly for me. how would i feel if she nad spent that last four months in love with someone and they where still in contact with them. and i really get that point. but, i want to be in krista freyslife like i was. in the shower last nite, i thought back to the summer. everyday at kristas. god i was soo happy. even tho i have never been happier than i am now, i miss that. that was my life. period that was it. before my krista, that was my life, being at krista freys. that was pretty much my home. i guess i should have started to give up more than i did when she moved in with him, cause our time together did, but it was the only thing i had. so i didnt. and now i have my krista. but there is now way practacily over nite i can just stop feeling the way i do abput krista frey. and now i think again she is pissed at me, and god that makes me feel that like totall shit. i just wish mine could understand, but i know she will prolly never change her mind, and it scares the shit out of me to think i wont have any rekationship at all with krista frey. not having her in my life somehow...even tho i have mine. but when krista frey ws here, i felt soo guilty, god. because of the thoughts that where going through my head. i wanted to just make out with krista frey sooo bad. and when she kissed me twice when she left, i didnt, tho i wanted to soo bad. oh and just for like shits and giglles, nate said that amber told him if he ever broke up with her, she would want to go out with me then. and just as a side note. like friday they where here and amber poked me, she had never done anything like that before. god. nothing to like 2 or fuck 3 . god. haha life is wonderful. i love you krista kay with all my heart. you are my everything and always will be no matter what. now and always. i love you!!!!!!!!!
music: linkin park/jay z - numb/encore
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music: linkin park/jay z - numb/encore
Thursday, November 11, 2004
ok here is more of the story...so its thursday and we go to the mall. we hang out there for like an hour. she picks up her pay check. she works at famous footware there at the mall. so then we dont know where to go, and we finally decide on big lots. so on the way to big lots...hahah guess who calls. krista. so im talking to her and she can tell like something is different. and then i piss of my gf by talkn to krista. so ya. we go to big lots have a fun time stop at sheetz get a drink. come back her and watch varsity blues in my room. and we are holdin each other and such. nate and amber call and we meet them at taco hell. then we go with them to the new walmart. have a fun time with them. come (am i getting very like lazy with my sentances. i think i am, sorry) so we come back here and watch life as we know it in my room. so now...i could tell the entire nite she wanted me to kiss her. so i finally make my move. i go in and kiss her, and then we kiss for like 3 mins. it is soo great. we kiss like 3 or 4 times later that nite. so i take her home and in her drivway, i tell her i love her. she says it was a little soon but its ok i love you too. that made fell alittle weird, but when i got home she left me a im saying the she loved me too very much and we talked on aim. the i called her and that was thursday. recap. in two days i go from not knowing she exsits to being her boyfreind falling in love with her and having my first kiss with her. at that point i truley fall in love with her. she is sooo great. friday, i call her at like 6 in the mornig to talk to her, she wanted me to im not crazy or anything. she says she is coming over after school. so im happy. she gets her and we watch tv in the living room. and we make out on the couch. yes there is tounge. it was so perfect. she is so perfect. so leaves to go to the football game. nate and amber come over at like 7 we get a pizza and a movie. krista gets back at like 10 nate and amber leave, and then on the couch we ahve a make out seesion. it was soo great. it was unbeilivable. she goes home and we talk online line and i call her. saturday: i pick her up at 11:30 and we hag out nate and amber come we hang out like all day. sunday about the sametho on sunday she touches me,and she has me touch her and she was grinding herself off my hand and like grapping at my shirt on the couch while nate and amber were in the room. monday not much. im hurrying upup to get to the good stuff. tuesday a lot of touchy feely. then comes wedsday!!!!!! wow wendsday. yep. she gets here at like 6with amber nate gets her at ;like 7 they leave at like 8. we go to my room and she says shut the door. she touches me and undoes my belt. then un zipps me. and puts her nad down my pants and starts to rub me. hard. she starts really going in at it. holy shit. she stops and i undo her belt, un zip her pants and rub her outside her panties then go in them and rub her. then i start to finger her, and i start really going at it,, for awhile, she asks me if i want to do it, but wedecide not to. she goes home. calls me as soon as she gets home tells me i should come over and bring somethig just in case. i bring it and come over. in like 5 mins we are in her bed and she is rubbing me and talking off my pants, i undo her belt and and un zip her. she asks me if i want to do it. i say yes. i ask her and she says yes. taling my privacy her a litle. we do it. so ya. on our 1 week annv. we do it. i have know this girl for 1 week. i love her more than anything in this world. so ya. the greatest craziest week in my life is over. and the rest off my life has begunh. i love you krista kay, i love you more than anything. u are my everything. I LOVE YOU KRISTA KAY!!!!!
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Sunday, November 07, 2004
so ya wow...haha...for like 5 months now my life is the same shitty reality. had its highs and some pretty fucking low lows, ya know. haha, and then, out of nowhere, something happens, that you cant explain, it is unbeilievable. there is now way in hell i saw coming what has happened to me in the last five days. this is goona be long...the beginging of the greatest day of my life. on wendsay, i skipped meteo to go annv. shopping w. nate to the mall so he could get something for amber. and we were living and he called ambers house to see if she was home and she was hahah at the mall with 2 freinds, so we stopped at some place and amber left her freinds and came with us. yadda yadda, we come back here and they leave. like 10 mins later an im comes up for amber. its from sombody that isnt on her buddy list, im like i should just close it or sign off and it will go away. but im nice and say that amber isnt here and such. she says oh ok ya know who is this, i tell her who i am and she asks me for my screen name. so i give it to her and we satrt talking, y she want to talk to me i have know idea but the stars were aligned that nite and everything happened for a reason. so ya we are talkking for like an hour, she seemes pretty cool, then out of like now where she asks if i want to go to dds for coffee, i was a little like what but i said sure, so at this pt. im like ok...huh. so i get there and we meet for the fiirst time, she sees pretty cool, we have a really good time and convo at dds. we are hter for like and hour, and i walk her back to her car, and i almost kissed her, i have know her for like 2 hours and im feeling this way about her, it was sooweird. but i just hug her. so on the way home i said to myself...ya that was fun...huh...dont do this again...its only gonna fuck you over emotionly...i cant and wont have her in my life....but for once the stars stayed aligned. so get back home and continue talking on aim. ya we keep asking each other questions and shit. it goes on till like 1am. and she says she is getting offline and gonna go lay in bed, and i should call her.so now im like ....huh...ummm...ya know...maybe...smile....so i call her and we talk for like another hour. and during the convo she asks if i wanted to kiss her when we left dds. i was like ya ithought about it a=but didnt know if it would be right seeing as i have known you for like 4 hours. i asked her if it would have been ok, and she sadi ya. so now me thinkin...huh....wow....maybe....wow...we keep talking and my the end of the convo we agree that we are now officailly a couple. we say goodnite and now im thinking wtf....huh...omg...i have a gf....oh by the way her name is krista(ya really freaking weird) middle name kay i call he krista kay....i have a gf....wtf... huh...old krista.....im nit doing anything wrong...(tho to find out she cant believe im doing this to her)....my life...i need to move on...i am happy for the first time in years.....she is a great person.....i think i love her. oh and the whole like we are now a couple thing happened at 2:09am on 11/04/04. so thursday. i pick her up from school, she is 19 bd is on 10/10 senior at central and ya ambers freind. we go to the mall and hang out...ok im really tired and aboout to fall alsepp...ill contiue tommor. i got to get up earlier to call my wonderful krista kay b4 she goes to school. i love you more than anything in theis world. u came into my life at the exact right time and saved me from myself. u are my only, my only one. i cant put into words how deep my feelings are for you. tho three words start to scrape the surface. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!! i love you krista kay!!!! i love you so much and so much more. 143. i love you krista kay.......
music: i cant do this right now.......to soon....to weird....
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music: i cant do this right now.......to soon....to weird....
Monday, November 01, 2004
KK61034: KRISTA!!!!
Krista62604: hey!
Krista62604: you seem so excited
KK61034: haha
KK61034: i am
KK61034: its the first time i have ever talked online with you
Krista62604: i know
KK61034: its a specail nite
Krista62604: lol
Krista62604: i hate aol 'cause i can't just hit enter to send stuff
KK61034: wow thats stupid
Krista62604: that's why i like yahoo
KK61034: ic
Krista62604: this is the first time i've used any chat on this puter. i'm trying to set up my preferences.
KK61034: cool
Krista62604: you're not saying too much
KK61034: im sorry
Krista62604: what's going on
KK61034: watchin tv
KK61034: whats u doin?
Krista62604: cool
Krista62604: checking my mail right now
KK61034: ic ic
Krista62604: :-D
KK61034: how was ur fist day off in like a week
Krista62604: terrible
KK61034: that sucks
KK61034: y?
Krista62604: michael was so bad and cocky. all i did was yell at him today. i can't stand my own child anymore. then i just wanted to talk to you but i had other shit i had to do and i just wanted a hug.
KK61034: ahhh
KK61034: i wish i was there for you
Krista62604: it's ok. not your fault
KK61034: o i saw you today on my way home from the dentist
Krista62604: really? where
KK61034: you were pulling out of your road
KK61034: at like 11 or so
Krista62604: onto old bwk road?
KK61034: ya
Krista62604: yup. i was headin to the ho
KK61034: ah ic
Krista62604: so how'd it go
KK61034: it was nasty, the did something and it really freaking hurt
KK61034: i was numb till like 6 this evening
Krista62604: cool
KK61034: i souded retarted when i talked
Krista62604: well, the numb part, not the pain part
KK61034: ya
Krista62604: so talk to me
KK61034: ahh i am sorta kinda
KK61034: i know thats not enough
Krista62604: tell me whatever you're thinking, and don't lie and say nothing.
KK61034: the exact thing i was thinkin when you said that was i was gonna ask you what your doing tomoorow
Krista62604: going to selinsgrove in the am and then i don't know.
KK61034: ic
KK61034: are you and the boys still going trick or treating
Krista62604: i don't know when we're going or where. i'm hoping to find them costumes tomorrow. i should've looked when millville is doing theirs.
Krista62604: oops
Krista62604: brb need a potty break
KK61034: ok
Krista62604: i'm back
KK61034: ok
Krista62604: so what r u doing tomorrow
KK61034: not much at all
Krista62604: talk 2 me
KK61034: if ya find costumes you should come to my house
KK61034: i will get some krackel for ya
Krista62604: lol
Krista62604: i love you
KK61034: i love you too
Krista62604: i don't know if i'm gonna dress up. i'll have to see if anyone else is going to at work
KK61034: ya
Krista62604: what condition would you say my couch and chair are in?
KK61034: fair
Krista62604: otay
KK61034: they are comfy
Krista62604: true
KK61034: tho the only time i slept and the couch i was totally slammed
Krista62604: yup lol
KK61034: ahh good times
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: i'm never getting you drunk again, unless i'm there. but since ed doesn't want me hanging wtih you that much, i don't think that will happen
KK61034: we will find sometime, sometime im sure
Krista62604: i don't know. i'd probably get in trouble.
KK61034: well i dont want that to happen
Krista62604: i could never stop hanging with you. he hasn't asked me to stop completely, he just asked that it not be every day like it used to be. ahhh, the good ol' days.... lol
KK61034: i miss them
Krista62604: do ya? what about them
KK61034: i miss not seeing you like all the time
KK61034: i had soo much fun with you
Krista62604: but it was driving you crazy. for all i know, even seeing me once a week could be driving you crazy.
KK61034: if i didnt see you, that would drive me crazy
Krista62604: kevin, i've been told you've cried many times about me. i don't know if you still do, but you had i love krista on your phone's banner. i love you to death but i know that i'm the cause of it all because i led you on.
Krista62604: i feel terrible. hell, i still do it by flirting with you and touching you and holding your hand. many times i've thought about giving you a kiss, but then i think and know that it would be the wrong thing to do.
Krista62604: did you leave or something? you 're not talking.
KK61034: im sorry
Krista62604: sorry for what?
KK61034: not talking any making you feel bad beacuse of me
Krista62604: you just totally confused me. i'm sorry if i upset you.
KK61034: you didnt
Krista62604: ok.. so what's your take on what i wrote?
KK61034: i know that ur in a sreious relationship, but i still love you soo much, and there is still a part of me that just hopes that one day things would be differnet, and if there wasnany thing i could have done or could do to make things different, tho the absoulete last thing i want to do is cause you pain.
Krista62604: you are so sweet. i've thought about if things would have gone differently, too, but i don't think i could have gotten you involved in my life the way it is. i could never bring you into a relationship where i am getting divorced for the 2nd time and i have two kids by different fathers. and i have a shitty job. that would be the last thing you need. you're going to school and doing something right, which is where i screwed up. i would never have been able to interfere with that.
KK61034: you know i would give it all up to be with you
Krista62604: there is no way i would ever let you do that.
KK61034: well i would do anything to be with you, you are the most important thing in my life, not wheter or not i am a meteoogist or not
Krista62604: honey, i should not be the most important thing in your life. first off, your family should come first. then schooling, then whatever. and then me. to get a good job around here, you need schooling. or you won't get shit.
KK61034: i cant help it but you are the most important thing in my life
KK61034: the only time im feel truly happy is when im with you or talking to you
Krista62604: ooohh, kevin. i love being around you. it's even better when you talk to me. :-)
KK61034: you dont know how happy you make me feel
Krista62604: so tell me
KK61034: you nate and amber are like family to me, i dont know how i lived before, and you are sooo special to me. to know sombody loves you for who they are its sooo awesome, plus the fact you are the most beatufill woman on the face of the earth doesnt hurt, i just love being with you soooo much
Krista62604: of course i love you for who you are. you are so awesome. it's nice to know somebody who is a real person and doesn't put on a show for everybody. and sweetie, i am FAR from the most beautiful woman on the face of the earth. i could go anywhere and find at least ten who are much better looking. but thank you. ;-)
KK61034: thats an exapmle right there your personality is soo great
Krista62604: huh? what's an example? god, you make me laugh.
KK61034: lol
KK61034: you like downplayin me sayin ur so great, i love you
Krista62604: i love you too, but i see my face and body every day and i do know for a fact that there is much better out there
KK61034: ok fine whatever, to me your beatuifull
Krista62604: well thank you. lol
Krista62604: ur gonna make me blush here pretty soon
KK61034: ahh
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: i'm gonna download the newer version of aol in a minute, so if i disappear, i'll be back asap.
KK61034: ok
Krista62604: or not. that website was dumb.
KK61034: hahaha
Krista62604: you laughing at me???
Krista62604: lol
KK61034: nooo
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: sure
KK61034: haha, im laughin with you so if your not laughin please start now
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: we definitely need to hang out tomorrow. i want to give you a hug
Krista62604: ok now i'm laughing
KK61034: good
KK61034: i need a hug too
Krista62604: good what
KK61034: that ur laughin with me
Krista62604: do you have a newspaper there
KK61034: not with me, i think todays is upstairs still
Krista62604: shit. i don't think millville had it in there when their doing trick or treating. nevermind. dammit
KK61034: ok
Krista62604: i'm gonna go get a drink. brb
KK61034: ok
Krista62604: i'm back. did you miss me?
KK61034: of course i did
Krista62604: yeah, ur full of s*@#. hehehe
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: i'm freezing
KK61034: turn the heat up and put a sweatshirt on
Krista62604: the heat is set at 70 and i don't feel like getting up for another shirt. my feet are cold too.
KK61034: jeez, ur always cold
Krista62604: i know
KK61034: i should be there to warm ya up ;-)
Krista62604: maybe if it was my house and not ed's. :-P
KK61034: ya
Krista62604: but out of curiousity, how would you warm me up?
KK61034: id suggel up with ya, real close and get ya some warm comfy sleppers for your toes
KK61034: *snuggel
Krista62604: ur so cute
Krista62604: not even a dirty thought in your mind
KK61034: or i just hide them well
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: which is it
KK61034: im sure there are a few lurking around in my little head
KK61034: but i am also cute
Krista62604: yeah? like what? no getting around it - tell me.
KK61034: well, if ya really would want to get warm...im sure we could go to the bed and things could heat up ;-)
Krista62604: how would you suggest things could heat up? i'm definitely curious. especially because you aren't like typical guys that i know - you aren't perverted all the time
KK61034: well, there deff. would be a lot of hugging and kissing, and holding each other tight
Krista62604: yeah...
Krista62604: you've gotta be more specific. on covers, under covers, clothed, unclothed, etc
Krista62604: i'm bad. sorry
KK61034: haha
Krista62604: now what are u laughing at
KK61034: under covers un clothed tho it defeats the whole getting warm issue
KK61034: u being naughty
Krista62604: not necessarily.
KK61034: i know
Krista62604: if you're naked and under the covers, the covers keep you warm along with body heat and any friction that is occurring.
Krista62604: i can't believe i'm saying this shit
KK61034: you are absoulte right
KK61034: me too
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: you're never gonna look at me the same way again.
KK61034: yes i will, i promise
Krista62604: and this is being nice
KK61034: 95% being nice
KK61034: 5%bs
KK61034: ur so great
Krista62604: don't ever get me doing this while either a) drunk or b) horny i would get your mind agoing
KK61034: hahaha
KK61034: i bet
Krista62604: 5% what?
KK61034: nevermind
Krista62604: no
KK61034: i got confusded
KK61034: im sorry
Krista62604: i could be really bad now, but i'm not gonna do that to you. give you something to dream about though
KK61034: ya
Krista62604: god i am so not gonna be able to look at you tomorrow. shit
KK61034: yes u will
Krista62604: i'm gonna be embarrassed or something.
KK61034: cause im so damn good to look at
Krista62604: lmao
Krista62604: yes you are
KK61034: thank ya
Krista62604: you're gonna look at me and think god, she's got a dirty mind, and i haven't even done anything yet. i'm really bad sometimes. trust me.
KK61034: i trust ya
Krista62604: i've thought things like kissing you and touching you and having sex with you, but things turned serious with ed and i couldn't do that stuff. i cannot believe i'm telling you this.
Krista62604: ok, how big is the smile on your face
KK61034: yep
Krista62604: yep what?
KK61034: just yep
Krista62604: yep about what??
KK61034: the smile
Krista62604: oh
Krista62604: so why are you smiling
KK61034: its not that big
Krista62604: what, ur smile?
KK61034: yes, the smile
Krista62604: lol
Krista62604: tell me what you're thinking right now
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: tell me
KK61034: if things didnt get serious with ed how differnet my life could be right now
KK61034: what are u thinking right now
Krista62604: i love you
KK61034: im always thinking that about you
Krista62604: you make me feel so good. you are so sweet to me.
KK61034: you are the same to me
Krista62604: i couldn't ever be mean to you. even if you were to make me mad, which i don't think could ever happen.
KK61034: i know for a fact i could never ever ever, be mad at you
Krista62604: :-)
KK61034: god ur soo great
Krista62604: you are too. well, honey, i should get off of here and get some sleep. i'm tired. how about i give you a call tomorrow after i figure out what i'm doing.
KK61034: ok
KK61034: what a first onlibe convo
KK61034: *online
Krista62604: ok. thanks for talking to me. especially about other things. :-)
KK61034: of course, i love talking with you about anything and everything
Krista62604: they can only get better. in dirty ways. can you tell where my mind is tonight? lol
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: jeez. ok, i'm gonna sign off after you say bye, so goodnight, i love you and i'll call you tomorrow. my kevin. lol night honey
KK61034: goodnite krista, i love you and sleep good, talk with ya tomoorow
KK61034: i love you soo much
KK61034: goodnite
Krista62604: i love you too very much.
Krista62604: bye sweetie xoxoxoxoxo
KK61034: goodnite
KK61034: *big hug*
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Krista62604: hey!
Krista62604: you seem so excited
KK61034: haha
KK61034: i am
KK61034: its the first time i have ever talked online with you
Krista62604: i know
KK61034: its a specail nite
Krista62604: lol
Krista62604: i hate aol 'cause i can't just hit enter to send stuff
KK61034: wow thats stupid
Krista62604: that's why i like yahoo
KK61034: ic
Krista62604: this is the first time i've used any chat on this puter. i'm trying to set up my preferences.
KK61034: cool
Krista62604: you're not saying too much
KK61034: im sorry
Krista62604: what's going on
KK61034: watchin tv
KK61034: whats u doin?
Krista62604: cool
Krista62604: checking my mail right now
KK61034: ic ic
Krista62604: :-D
KK61034: how was ur fist day off in like a week
Krista62604: terrible
KK61034: that sucks
KK61034: y?
Krista62604: michael was so bad and cocky. all i did was yell at him today. i can't stand my own child anymore. then i just wanted to talk to you but i had other shit i had to do and i just wanted a hug.
KK61034: ahhh
KK61034: i wish i was there for you
Krista62604: it's ok. not your fault
KK61034: o i saw you today on my way home from the dentist
Krista62604: really? where
KK61034: you were pulling out of your road
KK61034: at like 11 or so
Krista62604: onto old bwk road?
KK61034: ya
Krista62604: yup. i was headin to the ho
KK61034: ah ic
Krista62604: so how'd it go
KK61034: it was nasty, the did something and it really freaking hurt
KK61034: i was numb till like 6 this evening
Krista62604: cool
KK61034: i souded retarted when i talked
Krista62604: well, the numb part, not the pain part
KK61034: ya
Krista62604: so talk to me
KK61034: ahh i am sorta kinda
KK61034: i know thats not enough
Krista62604: tell me whatever you're thinking, and don't lie and say nothing.
KK61034: the exact thing i was thinkin when you said that was i was gonna ask you what your doing tomoorow
Krista62604: going to selinsgrove in the am and then i don't know.
KK61034: ic
KK61034: are you and the boys still going trick or treating
Krista62604: i don't know when we're going or where. i'm hoping to find them costumes tomorrow. i should've looked when millville is doing theirs.
Krista62604: oops
Krista62604: brb need a potty break
KK61034: ok
Krista62604: i'm back
KK61034: ok
Krista62604: so what r u doing tomorrow
KK61034: not much at all
Krista62604: talk 2 me
KK61034: if ya find costumes you should come to my house
KK61034: i will get some krackel for ya
Krista62604: lol
Krista62604: i love you
KK61034: i love you too
Krista62604: i don't know if i'm gonna dress up. i'll have to see if anyone else is going to at work
KK61034: ya
Krista62604: what condition would you say my couch and chair are in?
KK61034: fair
Krista62604: otay
KK61034: they are comfy
Krista62604: true
KK61034: tho the only time i slept and the couch i was totally slammed
Krista62604: yup lol
KK61034: ahh good times
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: i'm never getting you drunk again, unless i'm there. but since ed doesn't want me hanging wtih you that much, i don't think that will happen
KK61034: we will find sometime, sometime im sure
Krista62604: i don't know. i'd probably get in trouble.
KK61034: well i dont want that to happen
Krista62604: i could never stop hanging with you. he hasn't asked me to stop completely, he just asked that it not be every day like it used to be. ahhh, the good ol' days.... lol
KK61034: i miss them
Krista62604: do ya? what about them
KK61034: i miss not seeing you like all the time
KK61034: i had soo much fun with you
Krista62604: but it was driving you crazy. for all i know, even seeing me once a week could be driving you crazy.
KK61034: if i didnt see you, that would drive me crazy
Krista62604: kevin, i've been told you've cried many times about me. i don't know if you still do, but you had i love krista on your phone's banner. i love you to death but i know that i'm the cause of it all because i led you on.
Krista62604: i feel terrible. hell, i still do it by flirting with you and touching you and holding your hand. many times i've thought about giving you a kiss, but then i think and know that it would be the wrong thing to do.
Krista62604: did you leave or something? you 're not talking.
KK61034: im sorry
Krista62604: sorry for what?
KK61034: not talking any making you feel bad beacuse of me
Krista62604: you just totally confused me. i'm sorry if i upset you.
KK61034: you didnt
Krista62604: ok.. so what's your take on what i wrote?
KK61034: i know that ur in a sreious relationship, but i still love you soo much, and there is still a part of me that just hopes that one day things would be differnet, and if there wasnany thing i could have done or could do to make things different, tho the absoulete last thing i want to do is cause you pain.
Krista62604: you are so sweet. i've thought about if things would have gone differently, too, but i don't think i could have gotten you involved in my life the way it is. i could never bring you into a relationship where i am getting divorced for the 2nd time and i have two kids by different fathers. and i have a shitty job. that would be the last thing you need. you're going to school and doing something right, which is where i screwed up. i would never have been able to interfere with that.
KK61034: you know i would give it all up to be with you
Krista62604: there is no way i would ever let you do that.
KK61034: well i would do anything to be with you, you are the most important thing in my life, not wheter or not i am a meteoogist or not
Krista62604: honey, i should not be the most important thing in your life. first off, your family should come first. then schooling, then whatever. and then me. to get a good job around here, you need schooling. or you won't get shit.
KK61034: i cant help it but you are the most important thing in my life
KK61034: the only time im feel truly happy is when im with you or talking to you
Krista62604: ooohh, kevin. i love being around you. it's even better when you talk to me. :-)
KK61034: you dont know how happy you make me feel
Krista62604: so tell me
KK61034: you nate and amber are like family to me, i dont know how i lived before, and you are sooo special to me. to know sombody loves you for who they are its sooo awesome, plus the fact you are the most beatufill woman on the face of the earth doesnt hurt, i just love being with you soooo much
Krista62604: of course i love you for who you are. you are so awesome. it's nice to know somebody who is a real person and doesn't put on a show for everybody. and sweetie, i am FAR from the most beautiful woman on the face of the earth. i could go anywhere and find at least ten who are much better looking. but thank you. ;-)
KK61034: thats an exapmle right there your personality is soo great
Krista62604: huh? what's an example? god, you make me laugh.
KK61034: lol
KK61034: you like downplayin me sayin ur so great, i love you
Krista62604: i love you too, but i see my face and body every day and i do know for a fact that there is much better out there
KK61034: ok fine whatever, to me your beatuifull
Krista62604: well thank you. lol
Krista62604: ur gonna make me blush here pretty soon
KK61034: ahh
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: i'm gonna download the newer version of aol in a minute, so if i disappear, i'll be back asap.
KK61034: ok
Krista62604: or not. that website was dumb.
KK61034: hahaha
Krista62604: you laughing at me???
Krista62604: lol
KK61034: nooo
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: sure
KK61034: haha, im laughin with you so if your not laughin please start now
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: we definitely need to hang out tomorrow. i want to give you a hug
Krista62604: ok now i'm laughing
KK61034: good
KK61034: i need a hug too
Krista62604: good what
KK61034: that ur laughin with me
Krista62604: do you have a newspaper there
KK61034: not with me, i think todays is upstairs still
Krista62604: shit. i don't think millville had it in there when their doing trick or treating. nevermind. dammit
KK61034: ok
Krista62604: i'm gonna go get a drink. brb
KK61034: ok
Krista62604: i'm back. did you miss me?
KK61034: of course i did
Krista62604: yeah, ur full of s*@#. hehehe
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: i'm freezing
KK61034: turn the heat up and put a sweatshirt on
Krista62604: the heat is set at 70 and i don't feel like getting up for another shirt. my feet are cold too.
KK61034: jeez, ur always cold
Krista62604: i know
KK61034: i should be there to warm ya up ;-)
Krista62604: maybe if it was my house and not ed's. :-P
KK61034: ya
Krista62604: but out of curiousity, how would you warm me up?
KK61034: id suggel up with ya, real close and get ya some warm comfy sleppers for your toes
KK61034: *snuggel
Krista62604: ur so cute
Krista62604: not even a dirty thought in your mind
KK61034: or i just hide them well
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: which is it
KK61034: im sure there are a few lurking around in my little head
KK61034: but i am also cute
Krista62604: yeah? like what? no getting around it - tell me.
KK61034: well, if ya really would want to get warm...im sure we could go to the bed and things could heat up ;-)
Krista62604: how would you suggest things could heat up? i'm definitely curious. especially because you aren't like typical guys that i know - you aren't perverted all the time
KK61034: well, there deff. would be a lot of hugging and kissing, and holding each other tight
Krista62604: yeah...
Krista62604: you've gotta be more specific. on covers, under covers, clothed, unclothed, etc
Krista62604: i'm bad. sorry
KK61034: haha
Krista62604: now what are u laughing at
KK61034: under covers un clothed tho it defeats the whole getting warm issue
KK61034: u being naughty
Krista62604: not necessarily.
KK61034: i know
Krista62604: if you're naked and under the covers, the covers keep you warm along with body heat and any friction that is occurring.
Krista62604: i can't believe i'm saying this shit
KK61034: you are absoulte right
KK61034: me too
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: you're never gonna look at me the same way again.
KK61034: yes i will, i promise
Krista62604: and this is being nice
KK61034: 95% being nice
KK61034: 5%bs
KK61034: ur so great
Krista62604: don't ever get me doing this while either a) drunk or b) horny i would get your mind agoing
KK61034: hahaha
KK61034: i bet
Krista62604: 5% what?
KK61034: nevermind
Krista62604: no
KK61034: i got confusded
KK61034: im sorry
Krista62604: i could be really bad now, but i'm not gonna do that to you. give you something to dream about though
KK61034: ya
Krista62604: god i am so not gonna be able to look at you tomorrow. shit
KK61034: yes u will
Krista62604: i'm gonna be embarrassed or something.
KK61034: cause im so damn good to look at
Krista62604: lmao
Krista62604: yes you are
KK61034: thank ya
Krista62604: you're gonna look at me and think god, she's got a dirty mind, and i haven't even done anything yet. i'm really bad sometimes. trust me.
KK61034: i trust ya
Krista62604: i've thought things like kissing you and touching you and having sex with you, but things turned serious with ed and i couldn't do that stuff. i cannot believe i'm telling you this.
Krista62604: ok, how big is the smile on your face
KK61034: yep
Krista62604: yep what?
KK61034: just yep
Krista62604: yep about what??
KK61034: the smile
Krista62604: oh
Krista62604: so why are you smiling
KK61034: its not that big
Krista62604: what, ur smile?
KK61034: yes, the smile
Krista62604: lol
Krista62604: tell me what you're thinking right now
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: tell me
KK61034: if things didnt get serious with ed how differnet my life could be right now
KK61034: what are u thinking right now
Krista62604: i love you
KK61034: im always thinking that about you
Krista62604: you make me feel so good. you are so sweet to me.
KK61034: you are the same to me
Krista62604: i couldn't ever be mean to you. even if you were to make me mad, which i don't think could ever happen.
KK61034: i know for a fact i could never ever ever, be mad at you
Krista62604: :-)
KK61034: god ur soo great
Krista62604: you are too. well, honey, i should get off of here and get some sleep. i'm tired. how about i give you a call tomorrow after i figure out what i'm doing.
KK61034: ok
KK61034: what a first onlibe convo
KK61034: *online
Krista62604: ok. thanks for talking to me. especially about other things. :-)
KK61034: of course, i love talking with you about anything and everything
Krista62604: they can only get better. in dirty ways. can you tell where my mind is tonight? lol
KK61034: lol
Krista62604: jeez. ok, i'm gonna sign off after you say bye, so goodnight, i love you and i'll call you tomorrow. my kevin. lol night honey
KK61034: goodnite krista, i love you and sleep good, talk with ya tomoorow
KK61034: i love you soo much
KK61034: goodnite
Krista62604: i love you too very much.
Krista62604: bye sweetie xoxoxoxoxo
KK61034: goodnite
KK61034: *big hug*
Krista62604 signed off at 1:07:05 AM.
