Thursday, September 02, 2004
tho it almost happened yesturday, it deff happened tonite. i know that i am totally head over heels in love with krista. on my way home last nite from kristas i almost cried, and tonite i balled the whole way home. i just hate leaving her so much. i guess i should tell ya what has happened this past few days. on moday i didnt she her but we had one hell of an emotional phone convo. we half spilled our guts to each other. on tuesday i went over for only like 20 mins but it was soo worth it. cause i got to see her. then on weds i was there all afternoon and nite. we went to her uncles house to see her real dad and step mom. of course we were on each other nost of the time we were together those two days. then came today. got to kristas bout 530. the we went back to her uncles shortly after i got there. we really didnt do much till she was in the hot tub, i was sitting on the side and she was sitting in it next to me. we were holding hands and then she moved over and she had here legs all over mine and i started to rub her feet. after that we preety much couldnt keep our hands off one another. she hand her hand one my leg on the way home. when she got back from getting angela, i was laying on the couch and she came over to me and layed with me and we hugged and stuff for like 15mins and then she got a shower and then outside for a smoke and of course she sat on me and i was rubbing her thigh. and then back inside to sit on the couch and she was just soo close to me. she asked me what i ws thinking and for once i actually answered. i said i wish i didnt have to leave in like 10 mins and then she asked y and i said that i like being with you and then she just held me tighter than ever. then it was time to go, we poked at each other and held hands out to her car then we embraced so tightly and it was soo perfect. she kissed me and i kissed her and i deff know she felt that caused it made i loud sound and i know she felt it, then came the hardest thing i had to do all day, was let her go for the last time of the night, i was already a wreck, i walked right into my car. i just love her soo much, i have never felt anything so real for anyone before. i would marry her tomorrow. she is the greatest person that has ever been in my life. i dont know how i survived 19 years w/o her in my life. theses past 4 or 5 months have been the best in my life.the first time that i saw her, i never in my widest dreams would have imagined that i would be totally in love with her. i hope i see her tomorrow. i know i prolly will at some point. i need her in my life. its so crazy, im in love with a 22 year old mother of 2 who for at least the time being is with somebody eles. and i know from our convo on monday that she does have real fellings for me. i just hope that sometime real, real, real, real x100 soon that she is completely mine. i pray for that. i love u kirsta, with all my heart, u mean everything to me!!!!!!! i love you!!!!!!later dayz, slaut.
music: hearing krista say anything!!!!!!!!
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music: hearing krista say anything!!!!!!!!
